GMH MUG SHOT FROM LEON COUNTY JAIL

Admin Number of posts: 139 Registration date: 2008-03-17

I hope you can access this link

http://www.leoncountyso.com/jailinfo/inmate_detail.asp

Angels Number of posts: 28 Registration date: 2008-03-20

Daffodil wrote:

I hope you can access this link

http://www.leoncountyso.com/jailinfo/inmate_detail.asp

I sit here on 1/4/09 thinking it was a year ago almost exactly to the moment when I first saw Gary Michael Hilton's photo on the news and heard about the missing hiker Meredith Emerson. I saw it and immediately recognized him as the man who had been at my home in Oct.-Nov. 2004 and who had acted so very strangely. In fact he was strange enough looking and threatening enough sounding for my husband to write about him being here at our home working for John Tabor and Insulated Wall Systems in a lawsuit that was begun in June of 2005. The context in which he was mentioned was under a count for Intentional Infliction of Emotional Distress.

I had never seen him since the last day he was here. I had never heard him called by the name Gary Michael Hilton, but I knew with almost 99.9% certainty that I recognized him from the photo shown which was his drivers license photo. The photo would have been taken close to the year he was here. Drivers license photos are taken here in GA each time you renew and a person would have renewed at the time every 4 years by their birthdate.

At precisely 12:28 p.m. I picked up the phone and called the Union County Sheriffs office to tell them what I knew of the person whose photo they were showing on the TV. Ever since that moment of recognition my world has been both forever changed and haunted by thoughts and feelings of such great sadness.

I know in my heart that Meredith is in a safe and loving place, that Cheryl and the Bryants are in that safe and loving place as well, but I cannot escape the feeling that they would all still be here with their loving families if not for events put in motion long before their paths crossed with Hilton that they had absolutely nothing whatsoever to do with. I cannot shake the feelings of despair and yes, anger that I feel that somehow this path we collectively seem to have been on was begun that day I received in the mail a post card which led us to be introduced to John Tabor and Mack Hilton (Gary Michael Hilton) and to be entangled in their unfolding web of deceit.

I struggle with the questions, Why am I here now in 2009 ready to go to a trial with John Tabor instead of having enjoyed a peaceful life for the past 5 years? Why was I there in 2004 to meet this man Mack Hilton, and again in 2005 to photograph a white van with a license plate of AFQ 1310, and in 2006 at the house right next door to where GMH lived speaking with Barbara Speed, and in 2007 to witness a deposition of John Tabor where in he lied under oath about Mack Hilton and many other things, and again in 2008 turning the TV news on which I never watch, so I could recognize the face of a killer? What have these events all been for? What do I do now, what is my purpose? How do I go about getting peace back in my life? How do I extricate the thoughts of these events and the people who I believe in my heart had to do with these murders, from my life?

Is there a greater lesson to be learned here and What is it?

Admin Number of posts: 139 Registration date: 2008-03-17

GeorgiaPeach,

I guess we're the only ones on this forum. I wish so badly I knew the answer to your question. None of it makes any sense at all. I didn't experience what you did, actually having contact with him, and I have not had to suffer the emotional pain you or Wolfscratch or the victims families and friends. the effect this has had on me, is that I never drive through the forest (which I do 5 days a week) without thinking about the fact that Cheryl and Meredith were alone there with a murdering monster. Every single time! The entire woods seems tainted to me.

you ask "What have these events all been for? What do I do now, what is my purpose? How do I go about getting peace back in my life? How do I extricate the thoughts of these events and the people who I believe in my heart had to do with these murders, from my life? "

The only way I know you can get peace back in your life is to find people who have had bad things happen to them, or just really need someone who cares and reach out and help them. Giving and helping others is the only thing that seems to heal hearts. at least it has for me.

PM me and I will give you my email address, ok?

Daffy

Angels Number of posts: 29 Registration date: 2008-03-19

GeorgiaPeach..your sad post lead me to tears...Daffy gave you some excellent advise about helping others.

Have you thought about the "Guardian Ad Litem Volunteer Program." This program trains you to be an advocate for a child as they go through the court system. You are a part of the Judicial System and you receive all court documents. You also appear in family court to represent the child's best interests. I do this and it is very rewarding to make a difference in the life of an innocent child. I have had the same little boy for over a year & he is just the sweetest thing. He just turned 5 years old. In these days of budget cuts, volunteers are so important. One of my peer guardians is a retired teacher who has been doing this for 18 years! Can you imagine how many children she has been a positive influence for?

This is a website of the program here in Tallahassee, it will give you an idea of the program. They may not call it the same in Georgia.

www.guardianadlitembigbend.org

Daffy, I still check in on here every few days. Happy New Year All!

Private Eyes Number of posts: 57 Registration date: 2008-03-18

GPeach. Gather your strength in all this. And remember, you are and were right where you were supposed to be.

This qoute gets me through the troubled thoughts that can cram my mindpeace.
"Our destiny is live in question, to struggle and wonder. And, I believe [...] that this is, perhaps, our true glory and our blessing. We can bow before the grandeur of God and the vastness of the mystery that surrounds us. We can know it. But we can never, finally and forever, bring it into focus."

Peace and strength-may it flow directley to you.